Something...

I've been told I'm a good kisser...last night actually. I don't really understand what that means. What exactly is a good kiss or a bad kiss? I'm sure everyone has different things they like and dislike. Is there an objective measure? Was I being given a line? More importantly, what did I think?

Plop

I'm feeling impatient. I want something to happen NOW. At this very moment. It's summer, time for romance. I'm tired talk and speculation. I want action. NOW. I know I shouldn't be too upset because there are those who have expressed interest. But, as I sit here Thursday night, I want that "thing" to look forward to this weekend, but alas, there is none. Btw, eharmony is being a complete dud for me. There is no one expressing interest, and I'm not even being picky or selective. I've again taken the "be completely open" route, but it's dudly.

The friend seems highly eager and excited that I agreed to meet up with him. Its making me feel strange and uncomfortable.

Drip Drop

The hollywood/actor guy called, but I missed the call. No message left, so I'm not calling him back. Not interested, but so flattered by the attention that I had to write about it.

Wrote the friend that I was flattered, that we could meet up and just see.

A Trickle

A old friend, who I've recently connected with, or rather, am in the process of connecting with formally asked me out. Said he had a little crush on me and would like to take me out. Good thing it's email so that my reaction was not visible. I love the boldness of it (love it), but hesitate given the histories. I'm trying to be open minded with who I date, but then am also reminded that I need standards, which is a good thing.

Board

I'm bored. I think I really need to find a guy just because I'm bored.

Yeah 2

I can't seem to let 9R go. I mean, it hasn't been that much longer, but if I had to be honest, I still harbor hope. He hasn't called or communicated with me at all, so that pretty much means no interest. But, I refuse to believe it. I mean, it's me! Why, how can it be he's not interested. In me?! just kidding, not really.

A friend says I subconsciously choose men who are unavailable. Can that be possible?

Yeah

When I said I was over, I wasn't.... but I'm headed there. I'm getting my level headedness back. It's disappointing and frustrating. It is not that often you find something you really want, not for me at least. I don't want the frustration to lead to bad choices, choices made out of desperation. And, I can see that happening! Yikes!

J3 emailed me today. He only wrote to inform me about something, not to ask how I was doing or anything. But it's not like he really needed to tell me this. I'm not going to reply. I just want someone fun but normal.

I'm over 9R

Already, I am over 9R. I mean, I'm just being realistic and preparing myself for the likely reality that nothing will come of this. I will enjoy the feeling and the fantasy, but know that it's just that and not to expect anything.

Okay, just changed my mind. The law of attraction says I must want and believe until it comes true.

I just read through my blog and the 1 + dating experiences. Sometimes I can be a b**ch. I think that my "first" meeting with 9R was different than the others which will be sad if he doesn't call me.

Few

A few of you have expressed much excitement for me over this new 9R. But, I am cautious and reticent. I mean, didn't I express similar excitement for J3, RS and others? And look where those ended. Plus, just because I'm excited doesn't mean he'll come calling again. I know he had a fun time. He said so. But, that doesn't mean anything. I know, I know...just enjoy...don't analyze.

I want to know what he thought when he first saw me. I also want to remember what I thought of him so.....When I saw him on Sun, I thought "oh, not what I remembered" but in a good way. I had met 9R a few years back and was unimpressed, but also unavailable. This time I thought he was overall clean cut/attractive. Not exactly the edgy type that I usually go for, but not the disappointment that I was expecting. I don't think I would have remembered him if we randomly encountered each other.

I'm trying to remember my very first impressions of J3 and RS... J3 took a few moments for me to warm up to him. RS was okay...can't quite remember. Most of the time, in all honesty, my first impression was "unimpressed" to "disappointed." I recall one meetup/date where I was pleasantly surprised.

O-kay...

I had "lunch" today with another "R"--9R. (It's half way through the year, and I'm only on number 9!) Surprisingly, I had a good time. It wasn't the super-fun-intense time that drinks usually bring on along, but it was a good, in a normal, we-really-have-a-lot-in-common, type of fun. We laughed a lot, about nothing; got a little serious, but not too much. I could be my wacky self and he didn't seem to mind (i don't think he did?) I say "lunch" because it started with a walk along the beach, which turned into a drink, then lunch, then the beach, and then dinner. Two locations and 8 hours.

Update

So I returned the actor's call on Mon. Couldn't talk long, and said I would call back. I decided not to, but he called me Fri; Left a message. I returned the call, said "I'm calling you back." He called back and invited me to join him in LA at some club. I didn't call him back. He then called Sat morning, and the first thing said/greeting was: "how's my girl doing!?" "Who's that?", I replied, knowing the line, but not knowing of a better retort. Later that conversation, after indicating I would not have time to meet up with him even though I was in his area, he said have a nice weekend, in a way indicating to me he won't call again.

New Month, New Action

Went on a mixer boat cruise around the harbor. Of all the potential mba types, I meet the actor. I mean, he did seem to be the person there having the most fun, as opposed to the stuffy business types, and I guess I really do have a thing for fun and funny. But it's so wrong so wrong so wrong; Not what I'm objectively looking for. And of course, he is GU (geographically undesirable). Of course he is no one I or anyone I know will have recognized, but had all the attitude trappings of the profession. I owe him a phone call, but I don't want to go down that path (again), but I do owe him a return call.