It's official...he has discovered it.

Since he was stalking me on FB years before, there is no doubt he will read through every page, no matter the 2+years worth of material.

Now he wants to blog together...It's just not the same... But then again, I can't really continue this format, since I'm not dating around anymore:()...there hasn't been anything good to write about.

check back soon.

He's found out about the blog!

He was at my place last night, using my computer to check facebook whatever...and went to check out a blog, going to blogger. And, when he typed in his email address, my blogger email came up automatically, so he saw the email address, then proceeded to google the email address plus blogger. I prevented him from searching further, but I can only do that for so long...it's only inevitable that he'll find the site. It can't be that bad, right? I told him he shouldn't read it bc we could break up and he wouldn't want that.

Thinking..

So, I think things are going really well...So well that I don't blog and that upsets me. I really want more writing material.

Hmmm...I think we have been getting along really well. I found myself getting snippy, ie naggy at him for little things. Things like, his place is really messy and he needs to spend 20 min to de-clutter here and there. That's all..20 min at a time...and soon it can be clean! And, I'm no clean person; I have a HIGH tolerance for messiness and even I can't stand his place. So I started to get snippy and I have to check myself....is this a bad sign? Will I get even snippier as the relationship progresses? I don't want to be one of those couples that constantly criticizes the other, exchanging low barbs. Is this the start of "letting the guard down", true colors coming out?

Not sure what to write....Updates? Issues? Events?

Forgot to mention...a blast from the past just fb-d me. He's the guy...the guy I compare all my new relationships with. He's the one that was intense from the very first time we met. He was super fun when I had never experienced a super fun relationship. The problem as I remember was that he was just coming out of a long term relationship and so was I. The timing was just bad between us and neither could think of anything serious, only wanting fun flinging things. At first he emailed about 3+ months or so, and later even longer. The last time I heard from him was at least a year. I emailed back, that's the polite thing, right?

Side Observation

I parked my car and noticed my carport neighbor was fixing his car. That's his thing, he is constantly fixing and selling cars. I went over to say hi, because I'm trying to be friendly and get to know him although it's been like 5 years and I don't even know his name. I go over, he's under the hood, say hello, he points over to a girl sitting next to him and says "that's shauna". I say hi, and think, good... an opportunity to find out about him and maybe his name. I reintroduce myself and linger. And the girl says "I'm Matt's fiancé". Real stern and I think..."wow" was she trying to stake her claim on him? Did she think I was trying to steal him. Are there women who really think and operate that way? I mean, I don't even know his name, and I really think I should know it after all these years! Well, I learned his name! finally. I can say hi to him. I wonder if he's the neighbor that lives below me, like I've suspected, the one who had the very violent turbulent past, but has been good for the past 3 years.

He knows I have this blog, but I haven't quite been able to share the url with him. He said we could write an entry together...but that wouldn't be the same, right?

I invited him to a hiking trip I had planned with friends. The hiking trip was a weekend trip...drove up to Bishop Fri night, hiked Sat and drove back Sun. Was an extremely tiring trip. I think he and I did well together. There were a couple bumps, but I think that's normal. Like he didn't have a backpack even though I told him we'd be out all day. He only brought hiking shoes and work shoes because he came straight from work, but no others. Before the hike, he was super confident about it, but the hike ended up to be a challenge because of the altitude.