5 Min

I have 5 minutes to write this because I have to leave and meet S18 at 6:30p.m. I felt the need to blog and "come clean". I have really been looking forward to this meeting all week long. Like really. All week, I've been anxious and just feeling it. The rational side says: these feelings are just spring fever. it has nothing to do with S18... you don't know him, and even, from what you do know of him, he's not a serious potential...go have fun...keep and open mind and so forth. So, I am going, keeping an open mind. There is such a strong desire for something special to happen....