Thursday, September 24, 2009

Okay...Y16 and I talked...and I'm confused... I don't want to be taken for the fool...but...

He txtd he wants to take a dating break, I replied, what?!, he explained (via txt), I sent a long email "to set the record straight". I did not expect him to respond, I gave him an out. But then he did respond, and he called, and we talked. It's like...my strategy was to put the ball in his court, I did what I did so I could say I tried, but was ready to walk away. But, he responded. He wants to see me. I feel like I "won", but I don't want that. I'm left with a distasteful feel. I can't back out now...I already put myself out there...it would stink for me to back out. But I am not confident he's sincere. Why did he want to take a break, but now he doesn't? How seriously could he be taking me. He said he's seriously looking, he likes me so far. That's fine...it's only been 5 dates. I said I need more contact/conversations. I SO wanted to ask if he is dating others, is that why he's so busy? Is that why he was ready to cut me out? But, I just couldn't. I don't want to know. We're not there yet. I still keep my eyes/options open. I don't want to know the answer. My gut tells me he isn't although I know its fair game. Its just that I would not recommend this course of action to myself, but I can't help it...at least for now.

1 comment:

EL213 said...

Take a deep breath, let it out. Repeat. Rather than trying to figure this out rationally (dating has little logic), just let things be. Why expand so much energy? I know you care, and thus the frustration. Everything will resolve itself in no time. Take time to pamper yourself and to be your best self again.