Thoughts

My current strategy -of-the-moment is social hiking. There are several options from sierra club to meet-up hiking groups. My minor dilemma--is it worth the trouble? I mean, it's so much effort to drive across town, wait around for some strangers hoping not to miss them, and then hope that there are people of some interest there. For me, it's mostly the drive across town and waiting around; getting out of work early; and the likelihood that it's all a waste of time. Rarely are the people themselves disappointing. There's always some interesting character in a group. I need to remind myself of that.

This has officially become work, actual work. I have to do something not because it's enjoyable but because I have a goal, a mission, a target...must work toward the potential reward. Agh! this exploring is boring annoying.

Just Because

I emailed one of the guys from the hike. Asked a fake question to see if he'd respond and what he'd say. I'm not really interested (really) but I do crave attention. I feel like I'm just playing, just because I can, I'm bored, and that's what we women (me) do. So, I emailed him, asked him about other hikes. His response is to send me some info, said to let him know if I do a hike, maybe he'll join me. Then he signs it "take care". All I notice is the "take care". Such the blow off sign off; I can't even focus on anything else. Of course, I respond in the best nonchalant direct manner... if you know of anything interesting going on around town let me know...Now, I eagerly await to see if he responds. Day, by hour, by minute:).

Okay, so the short of it is that nothing is going on. I'm keeping distracted with other things in my life. But, I know I will get bored/lonely soon and will have to find new interests.

Starting Again

It's time to start thinking about starting again; get back into the game; find that window of opportunity; never give up hope; keep the spirits up and so forth....I went on a sierra club singles hike. Going back to the familiar. And, it wasn't so surprising. There are the lonely men who troll for women. So obvious, but at least they try. There was the "he's not so bad but obviously shy would have to work at him" guy. I'm just looking for friends, to do something that I enjoy doing. That's what I tell myself.

I plan to pursue the hiking groups because it is what I enjoy. If I can find someone who camps, skis and does water activities, I would be so set. Plus, he would have to travel, be smart, social and with good career/goals. Plus, it helps to be funny, witty, intelligent and all around attractive. Alright, I've done the list many times, I will stop.

Should I go back online? Should I do speed dating, or other paid singles events? I'm a believer that there's something, something more to do.