Doesn't Matter

One of you was asking for a new post, but I've been in limbo and didn't know what to say. But actually, I am more embarrassed, almost humiliated, and definitely pissed off. Up to now, my dating experiences have all been great learning experiences, fun reflections of myself and bits of amusement if nothing else. J3 has turned out to be a piece of work, and I honestly don't think it's me.

I put myself out there to him, opening myself up. I expressed my feelings/hesitations to him, albeit, I couched it in terms of "my issues". His response was for me to handle it on my own and contact him without the issues. I got mad right back. Mind you, this is all through email. Part of my point was that the lack of real conversation was a problem and that I wanted to talk. My first attempt at broaching this was "I'd like to hear your voice." Then, I wrote "I would like a conversation." Then, I was like, "I expect a conversation, can we talk." He over reacted, something to the effect of not wanting a "conversation" because he doesn't care to get into my issues...they're my issues, not his. His reaction made no sense to me, except that he's callus and selfish. I've since sent several emails, not really caring if I get a response or not, telling him he makes no sense, has never taken me seriously despite professing otherwise,and he needs to realize his role in this.

I am reeling mad, and feel stupid and duped.

Interestingly, before all this, I started with talking about "my feelings/issues" because I didn't want to make this about him and what I wanted him to do differently. I thought that by expressing my feelings/issues, it could open him up to see what he could do. That tact so did not work.