So after all the agonizing over whether IJL was worth it, whether I was ready, whether I should focus my money and energy on working on other areas of my life, I decided to just take the plunge. I mean, it's just money. I don't frivolously spend, so why not. I decided, but then was out of town for several days. Then when I came back I said I'd do it. I called the lady back. She said she'd call me on Fri to go over the matches she had in mind. I went home, officially signed the contract online (but didn't pay). Then Fri came and went and she did not call. No big deal...Fri night.

Tonight (Mon) she calls and says that a lot of men called over the weekend to go on hold, so they don't think they have any matches for me! She met with her directors to go over the matches and doesn't think they have anyone for me. So, I should check back in a few weeks or a month.

Seriously? Should I feel rejected?

IJL

I met with the Its Just Lunch sales rep girl. She was NOT what I expected. The squeaky voice, incessant positive acknowledgment and affirmation that frequently didn't make sense....I didn't expect to like her. But she was older than I thought. She sounded 22, but she was mid-30s. So we talked for almost 3 hours. All about me, what I want, what I like, what I'm looking for...so how could I not enjoy the conversation. I want to get you started. You don't have to worry about signing the contract because there's no commitment. You sign the contract, we get you started, and you can still cancel. Turns out they have a 3 business day cancellation policy. I could sign, then decide by Tues that I changed my mind, full refund. But, you know me (or maybe you don't) but I can't commit to that much money, even if it's an investment in "me" without really thinking about it. Well, she understood, did her best not to let me go, but respected my process. I didn't say no, I just need to really think about this. So, she said she'd call tomorrow. She called when she said she would, but I didn't answer. Partly I'm avoiding her..still haven't made up my mind. But also have been nonstop busy.

I woke up the next day, thinking I should do this. What is $1700? I hardly spend money on things so why not on this? Here's the interesting thing.....as I see it.... I really liked her. I believed her when she said she believes in her company. She believes "I'm ready". She believes they have the right men for me out there. I truly believe her, am I falling for the hard sale? BUT...this here is interesting and I can't myself figure out... the "I have two men, I'm already thinking about for you...let met tell you ...(and she proceeded to tell me about them.)" No interest in them. They sounded boring. She didn't get it, get me. I told her so.

Anyhow, I owe her a return call. I feel bad for ignoring her call to me. I still need the weekend/time to think it through. So far, it's been 2 days, I'm still considering it. I think its what I need. Sure it's pricey, but what else am I going to do with the money?