Annoyed

I'm feeling annoyed and fed up. There's this guy...I think I identified him before but can't be bothered to go through this blog to see if I did. Anyhow, we met on match. I thought there was interest. We chatted. He wanted to meet up, but got busy. I got annoyed and fed up and told him I didn't think he was serious about wanting to meet. So I wrote to say he wasn't being serious, see you later. He said he didn't mean it that way he wanted to meet and be friends, so I was like whatever, okay we can be friends. He continued to email a bit, which I just would acknowledge. Then we became facebook friends so we have been connected; he updates his profile lots. So he called and left me a message yesterday, right after the IE15 incident. How "one door closes, a window opens" but not really. I returned his call and he's dulls ville. Is he interested romantically? I can hardly be sure. I'm just so fed up with having to work so hard. I feel bad for him because I'm not in an open mood right now. I'm very bitter/angry, irritated and annoyed at the moment. Oh, he asked if I wanted to meet. I said sure. He said (and I'm being serious here)...okay how about in 2 weeks I'll give you a call ...I think I should have time then. Whatever.

It's Over

IE15 and I are over. It ended. Are you as surprised as I was? I thought we had plans for this afternoon; he'd give me a call when he was back from out of town. I checked my phone, there was a message from him; I was excited to hear what it said. Then when I listened....I've been thinking a lot this week and weekend...I don't think we're that compatible....You're really nice....I'm going to resume my search...What?! Was I hearing this right? It wasn't supposed to be this way. IE15 was more into me than I was into him. That's how it was supposed to be.

I called him back when I go home. He was nice, exchanged pleasantries. He said he genuinely had fun with me but the compatibility wasn't there. Was there something more specific he could give me? He was more of an emotional/feeler type. I was analytical/thinker. Couldn't really dispute this. We talked some more...I said I appreciated the candor, wish you the best in the search, so I guess that's it!

As I'm writing...something isn't adding up....

I'm mulling through things....I saw this article that I had flagged for myself. Of course it's about dating and a woman who is giving herself 52 weeks to find love. Gosh, there are so many dating articles.

Eight

We finally did something together! We went to play pool, no food, no drinking...on my part at least. Now I'm hungry because I skipped dinner, but my excuse was that I had a very big lunch at work today. He's a good pool player and it was fun just interacting and talking. Found out something interesting about him....I was sharing with him how I am reading this book --She's Not There--about a transgender, man to woman. It's written by an English professor who is also a writer, so her story is very well told, very compelling. Was sharing with him, then he shared with me about his experience with a transgender person. Gosh, you learn these things and then you wonder if you needed to know.

Seven-Not what I was expecting

There was anticipation/concern on my part because he wanted me to have dinner with a friend who he was picking up from the airport. Turns out he wasn't a childhood/school friend but he was a hometown friend (they've known each other for 10 years?). Friend was quiet, dinner went. IE15 is the funny one, or he tries to be. He's really animated, I never really noticed before, maybe because I was upstaging him. But, when IE15 was there with his friend who is quiet, the animated side come out in full force.

So there was anticipation because he was having me meet a friend. That's a step, one that I wasn't expecting. But, then it clicked. I was being squeezed into his very busy schedule. He would be busy this weekend entertaining his friend. He's made no offer or indication of seeing me this weekend. He is busy the following weekend, going out of town. There will be no active date this weekend, or next. Oh no...

Feedback

I found this article about Roddick, the tennis player. OK, can a relationship based primarily on visual attraction really last? According to the article, he saw a picture of Brooklyn and had his agent contact her, stalked her for a while, she gave in and now they are marrying. Come on, for real? Hasn't this been done before? Is that where boy love starts? I give it a year, maybe two.

IE15 invited me to dinner on Thurs with a friend of his who is visiting him. I said yes...there's a "but" there somewhere. I can't think what it is; it's there though somewhere.

Number Six

IE5 invited to me to his place for dinner on Sat, 2 days ago. Why didn't I write about it right away. We had fun but I really want a date where we go bike riding or something day time, active related. Its like, I want the "relationship" to progress down a certain path...But, I'm afraid it's following another path...one I've been down before which never worked. I'm so afraid of going down the wrong path, making the same miscalculated judgments.

Dating Tips?

A friend sent me this article "What I Learned From Dating 100 Men".
Okay, 100 men! I thought I was girl on a mission and wanted to date as many as possible, but 100. I wish I could reach 100. I'm only on what, 15? maybe 20? In 2 + years? I found finding even 1 date on line to be a laborious process.

Fifth Time

IE15 came back from Cabo today and wanted to see me and I was free so I said yes. He was driving by my area from the airport so he picked me up at work and we went to get dinner. It was nice to see him, to chat, etc. I think we really get along in a certain way. I just look forward to doing more normal things together. It hasn't been that long, so I shouldn't rush to judge, but I really want to do things together, not just dinners and talking. Hopefully this weekend works out, even though its Easter.