Even More Annoying

O6 finally called me on Friday, some two weeks after I had given him my number. He left a message, I left a message. He called back and we spoke. I was in my car, on the way to lunch, he was talking, but not trying to get to know me, but trying to find a time to meet up or something. He asked if I was free tonight, I said I was unsure, my plans depended on a friend. He asked if I would like to see Phantom. If I wanted to go, he would go buy the tickets, just like that. I said I had to go, was distracted, could not really decide (which was true as the valet was waiting for me to get out of my car and I was running late as all this was going on) and said I would call back, which I did by leaving a message. I think I should run away and fast.

No Thanks

After three rounds of communication with someone on match, which, really, included only one substantive communication, I get this: "But if you are accepting of 'spiritual...not religious'.... and don't require marriage for physical intimacy...there is a chance."

I appreciate that this is an important item to discuss, but there is an appropriate time and manner of such topics. I have the urge to lecture on how inappropriate and off-putting this is. But, I think I will just say "no thanks".

Moving On...again

I gave my number to O6 on Sunday, see below. He did not call. Moving on........right?

He emailed me on Fri. (3/21) along the lines of "What you doing this weekend." I replied. "Not much..." I'm just so tired of the useless emails and games. I mean, I'll respond, but its getting annoying.

First Emails

This is what people have written to me in a first email:
I have always been attracted to asian woman, but you really are a special angelic beauty! I am seeking an attractive, beautiful, exciting asian woman, like yourself.
Or, how's this:
Hi there. If you like my profile, feel free to reply back. If not, then since I have ingeniously devised it to weed out a couple particular personalities, then by all means, good luck in your search. And also maybe focus on a little introspection as well.

Moving On...

I just gave my number to O6. See...I am really trying, almost too hard. I'm bitter caustic so beware. I should tell him that, not you, but my better sense of self tells me to keep those feelings in, and give the guy a chance. O6 is someone I have exchanged a couple emails via match. He expressed interest about 2 weeks ago, but I was caught up with J3 so didn't know how to respond. I finally replied today.

Bitterness

I'm still very bitter at the whole dating thing, but feel like I have to force myself to try again. But, do I really have to? I have about a month left on match so I probably should make the most of it. Eharmony expired weeks ago, and that turned out to be a complete dud. Very bitter.

Doesn't Matter

One of you was asking for a new post, but I've been in limbo and didn't know what to say. But actually, I am more embarrassed, almost humiliated, and definitely pissed off. Up to now, my dating experiences have all been great learning experiences, fun reflections of myself and bits of amusement if nothing else. J3 has turned out to be a piece of work, and I honestly don't think it's me.

I put myself out there to him, opening myself up. I expressed my feelings/hesitations to him, albeit, I couched it in terms of "my issues". His response was for me to handle it on my own and contact him without the issues. I got mad right back. Mind you, this is all through email. Part of my point was that the lack of real conversation was a problem and that I wanted to talk. My first attempt at broaching this was "I'd like to hear your voice." Then, I wrote "I would like a conversation." Then, I was like, "I expect a conversation, can we talk." He over reacted, something to the effect of not wanting a "conversation" because he doesn't care to get into my issues...they're my issues, not his. His reaction made no sense to me, except that he's callus and selfish. I've since sent several emails, not really caring if I get a response or not, telling him he makes no sense, has never taken me seriously despite professing otherwise,and he needs to realize his role in this.

I am reeling mad, and feel stupid and duped.

Interestingly, before all this, I started with talking about "my feelings/issues" because I didn't want to make this about him and what I wanted him to do differently. I thought that by expressing my feelings/issues, it could open him up to see what he could do. That tact so did not work.

Another Weekend

Another weekend is upon me which inevitably serves as a test. So far, there are plans to see each other tomorrow, but honestly, I am not certain they will materialize. I write this now, in order to memorialize my feelings on this. Even though I'm hopeful, it is not a good sign that I have such doubts. So there, I will see what happens!