The End

I've decided, I think I have, maybe, I think, that I am going to break it off with RS. Basically we see each other, it's good, but I just don't get the sense he is that interested. He's interested, but I want someone really interested. So anyhow, I know I need to clearly end it, more for my own mind, to have closure of it all.

Anyhow, I am tired of him, and of dating. I want a break or I want something new and exciting to be involved in. I've been with RS for three months and I'm tired. Not good, huh?

Now, I just need to find a way to tell him. I mean, if I don't contact him, who knows if he'll contact me. But, I want that "conversation" to have that definitive end, and now.

Just Things

Things with RS continue. I'm happy or content, but constantly am thinking about whether there is a future or not. I'm not sure if I our relationship is progressing, or if I'm being overly analytical.

J (See 9/30/07)emailed me tonight and asked for my number again. His explanation is that he didn't save my number from before and wants it again. Now, I don't want to pursue him any further because he is slow to email. I emailed him almost a week ago. That's just shows no serious interest on his part. I'm a bit tired of the process and need a break so want to end it with him. I could just ignore him, but I think that's rude. Trying to think of a good way to phrase it.

The Pendulum; Two Strike Outs

Things continue between me and RS, ever so swingingly. This past week we saw each other twice; once during the week, and then on the weekend. He seemed more interested than before. But, just when I think it's solid, I get the vibe it's not. Is it a deliberate push-pull or a natural back-and-forth. Am I wasting my time? Is he worth it? And, as we spend more time together, I see more of him and his behavior/character. Do I really like it all? Or am I so absorbed into him that I don't have objective judgment anymore? Ah, maybe its part of his master modus operandi?

On a side, now that I have more expectation of myself, I'm upset at having struck out...twice! (I'm referring to softball as I just got back from a game, but thought, somehow, that I could analogize.)

He's Just ....

He's Just Not That Into You. I got the book and have been roaring through it to see if it can shed light on my situation. So far, it hasn't really helped. Granted, I'm only 1/3 way through, but my situation isn't quite "he's not into me", but isn't quite "he'll let you know he wants you." I'll keep reading and maybe some epiphany will happen. I tried to "futureme" the situation(I tried to send myself an email 30 days into the future to see if I've made progress on accessing this situation), but they don't act as a reminder service; the minimum time is 90 days. Anyhoo...I'm serious about being serious about deciding whether to stay or not stay in this "relationship".